Blessings in Disguise

Sometimes, there are tons of blessings that come to our life without us knowing about it. We seem to care only to those which affect us the most and the blessings we desired. But don’t you know that sometimes the things we consider as a disaster is a blessing in disguise? We never see anything as a blessing unless it is according to our will.

These so called “blessing in disguise” can actually benefit us. Though they seem to cause disastrous problems, after we finally overcome them, the true blessings will arise. Meaning though we don’t know, but the things we thought of as disaster is for the best of us. For example, if you won’t be passing the exam on your first choice of school, don’t be so depressed, this can be one of those blessings in disguise. What if your second choice of school can provide you more chances of having friends and at the same time balancing your studies? Isn’t that a better choice?

There are also instances wherein we will lose someone we love. We normally blame God but didn’t we realize that having our loved one rest is for the better? Would you rather be with her and see her suffer? Or lose her, but you know that her sufferings had ended and she can finally rest? Isn’t choosing the first one makes us selfish. See, God knows what’s best for us. We just can’t understand it unless we see the possible consequences. Remember, God is always with us and will never forsake us. He works in different ways, probably in ways we don’t understand, but always remember that this is for the better.

True Love

Once you are ready to be miserable just for that person, you can say that love is true. When you are ready to make sacrifices just for her happiness even if it means hurting you, this is what you call true love. In my opinion, there are two kinds of true love, one that is unrequited and one that is reciprocated.

The first one, love being unrequited doesn’t mean it’s not true. There are instances wherein they had the right kind of love but on the wrong person. There are stories about love triangles, the leading guy, leading woman and her childhood friend. The childhood friend tends to fall in love with the girl ever since but never had a chance to confess. When he finally tried to do so he finds out that her friend loves someone else who loves her as well. So he would just give way and let her friend be happy, even if it hurts him so much to the point where he would not want to fall in love again. For he wants to treasure his first love, because he knows he can never have her. This is also real for I believe that, for love to be true, you must never be selfish, you must not only think of yourself but think of how the other person feels as well. In this case he values his friend/ loved one better than his own feelings so he was ready to sacrifice his happiness if it means she can be happy even though it’s with another guy.

And the other one, the love being reciprocated. You can say that they are lucky for they have the right kind of love on the right person. Their love is true for both of them are ready to make sacrifices for each other and be ready to face any problems that will arise and try to interfere with their relationship. But no matter what happens, they will still stand up together and love each other forever. Such trivial things can never let them break up but instead it will strengthen their bond for them to be able to face greater trials in the future. Just like Psyche and Cupid, even though Psyche’s sisters tried to ruin their relationship, they were able to overcome it and were able to go against Venus just to protect their love for each other. It also proved how much they love other for Psyche was ready to do anything just so Venus can approve of her as her daughter in law. Cupid was also there to forgive her and back her up when he knew she can’t do it alone.

Other’s misfortune = Other’s Pleasure?

In peoples’ hearts jealousy often arises when they feel inferior of others or when they can’t have what they wanted and someone else got it. And once this jealousy arises, it results to a revengeful feeling to make that person worse than what she is right now. This is because they feel that if that person will get hurt or feel bad, then they can be superior to her once more. It makes them feel good and accomplished if she would have misfortune in her life, payment for interfering to their success and fame. They also tend to hate that person for she has whatever they think they deserve much better.

So most of the time, the reason for this pleasure is mainly because of jealousy. It can be just like how Psyche’s sister had felt towards her. Just because their riches can’t compare to hers, they really got jealous and this resulted to a plan that can destroy her. They planned to hurt her by filling her mind with a doubtful feeling towards her husband and make her scared of him, to the point where she would want to kill him and save herself from being devoured by such a creature.

Regardless of their relationship, when a person feels jealous and can’t suppress it, it can result to a destruction of one’s life. After listening to her sisters, she lit the lamp and saw her husband. But instead of wanting to kill him, she fell in love with him at first sight. When Cupid found about what her wife had done, he flew to his mother and left her. This is the result of her sisters’ jealousy. It actually destroyed their relationship. It only proves that it can ruin a person’s life. But to her sisters it felt great, knowing that they are once again greater than her and more superior in terms of riches for example.

My first Crush

When I got older, that’s the only time when I began to realize that I had fallen for my first friend. He was not only my first friend but he was my first crush as well. I remember going out with my sister to play with our neighbors when she didn’t have classes. I was always alone in the house with the maid so I was excited to go out and play with my sister.

I remember my mom telling me that I can play with our neighbors since their son is of the same age as me, and her mom is one of my mom’s close friends, Mrs. Vivian. When I was introduced to him, I was really shy back then and just mentioned my name. He just smiled then we began to play. I was so happy that I just met my first friend.

There were times when I will be stingy and be mean to him, but he just ignored it and he still played with me. Well you can say that as a child, I was a bit selfish when it comes to my toys since I never have to share it with anyone since I’m always alone, I just don’t like others playing with it, and most importantly I hate it when they destroy it.

There was a time when I got mad at him for destroying my toy and then he cried. I began to run after him and comforted him saying I was sorry. He said he didn’t care if I was mad but what he doesn’t like is to see me sad. He said how sorry he was and we played again as if nothing happened.

Our happy times have to end one way or another. I was informed that we will be leaving and staying with our relatives in Maragondon. I played as much as I can with him but I never told him that we will soon be leaving. I don’t want him to cry again (he really was a crybaby back then).

The next day, it was time to leave, all our things our packed. I was very sad, knowing that we won’t be coming back here, and most importantly, I will not be able to see my best friend. I bid goodbye to everyone and as I was going out of the gate, I suddenly felt someone hugging me, it was him, he finally found out before I left. He was crying and said how sorry he was for being a bad playmate and promised to be good as long as I stay.

Tears then began falling in my cheeks. I told him that we have to go to where most of our relatives are staying. I told him how happy I was that I met him and I hope to meet him someday when we get older. I went in the car and waved goodbye to the people and especially to him, hoping that I can see him soon.

Welcome to Philippine Science High School

I was so excited about this trip that I hardly fell asleep, but as soon as it was four in the morning, I got out of bed and prepared myself. I got all the things I will need and then head off. I was nervous thinking that I was late and that I was the only they were waiting for. To my surprise, I was the second person to get there and even the teachers were not yet there.

So I just stood in front of the school while waiting for the others to arrive. Luckily, Maam Ureta arrived soon enough so I was not alone waiting there. And later on, Jen and Alpha arrived n time as well so I was not bored. We went to the room and put our things in our lockers. But we left soon since Jen said she had a weird feeling about the room, probably something creepy.

The after a long time of waiting, almost everyone arrived except for one first year student. We waited for the bus and then left later on. Some of the students joined us when we stopped by at Naic and Tanza. It was a long trip but it was worth it, as soon as we arrived. My first stop is at the book fair. I bought the book entitled “The Host”, the one I am willing to buy for so long.

Then we went to the gym, where the symposium will be held. We waited there for awhile until all of the students had arrived. It started off with signing the national anthem, and then with a prayer. The welcome remark was led by Dr. Helen E. Caitnic, the director of PSHS Main Campus. Then next was the intermission number by Sagala (Sayaw at Galaw) and the short lecture about the celebration for the Year of Astronomy. Then we had the announcements, closing remarks and the start for our chosen workshops.

I chose chem. magic and went to room 106, one of their chem. labs, together with Jen, Ria, ate Maikka, Justin and Mikee. We were divided into 3 groups and performed the experiments separately. It was fun. Though we had done some of the experiments, I still enjoyed it a lot, especially since I had a very cute teammate.

See he’s just in grade 4, and he’s so cute and adorable. He’s so amazed with the experiments we have been doing, and I suddenly felt the urge of wanting a younger brother, just like him, oh well. After that, we took pictures and then waited outside for the others.

We had lunch together and then went to the gym and waited for the Mathematics Interscholastic Competition 2009 to start. We watched the individual one, then waited for the team category. Unfortunately, we were not able to enter so we left and went to the bus.

While waiting for the teachers to arrive, while getting the certificates, I watched the rocket launching. It was a nice thing to see. After that, we left and unfortunately once again, we were lost in Quezon so we kept on going in circles for about 2 hours. But at about 5: 30, we reached Bacoor and had a stop over at the mall. I bought more books and food. Then later on, we were back after about an hour or so. Then after another hour, we parted ways and I went home with yet another memory to treasure

A Year Older

I can't believe it's been a year already. I was so preoccupied with my life that I was shocked to know that I will be facing another struggling year ahead of me. Anyway, i just don't want to be treated special during this time of the year, so I told everyone not to greet me and act normal.

So much for my drama, I was shocked as soon as I entered our room, nobody did greet me. I was shocked though I know that this is what I asked from them. Everything seems normal, the only difference is, they acted as if I am not around, I mean I didn't asked for them to ignore me. Is it just me, or this is really what it has been before.

So as usual, I went to our assigned place and started cleaning, I felt uneasy with the eerie atmosphere around me so I tried to talk to Kat and asked her why is she not talking to me, or if there is a problem, in case. She just nodded and proceeded with her work. That's strange, I mean normally, Kat-Kat will just tell me that nothing's wrong, change the subject and make me comfortable, but this time, it's all different.

So, now I get it that they won't greet me, since they started joking each other, and greeted Kat-Kat, pretending as if it is her birthday. I just smiled and went on with cleaning. Then later on, I've noticed that Ten-Ten kept on staring at me, so I asked her if she has a problem, but instead of answering she just hugged me and told me that I know whatever she wanted to tell me. She just wants to greet me a happy birthday, but didn't say it directly, since it is what I wanted(thanks Ten, you're the best!).

Then as soon as I entered our room, I've noticed my classmates talking to each other, as if they were planning on doing something. So there it was, our first subject, P.E. Since I've noticed Pamela, not having a book, I've lent her mine, for us to share, but then she refused and went to Kat-kat's chair. I wonder if she is part of their scheme.

Then, next is Math and we were supposed to graph the data we have, meaning, we need graphing papers. For the first time, someone else talked to me, and it was Jen, thinking she is not part of them, I talked back. Then later on, I've heard her being scolded by A-jae for talking to me, so maybe she is part of it as well.

I was quiet the whole time. I just figured it out that they were ignoring me intentionally, and if I try to talk to one of them, they will just be mad at that person, so I changed my tactic. Instead of pushing them to talk, why not let them talk to me through sympathy. So I tried to look as pitiful as possible, not talking to anyone and going on the lab on my own.

Then after Chemistry, I walked out of the lab, with Rochelle, the only person who's not part of it, I guess, and thought of who will I be going with during lunch. I thought of my choices: go home, eat alone or try to push Kat in eating with me, since I'm not sure if she is part of it.

But then, I never knew that it will really work out, they really did sympathized me. So, when I got to the room, Everyone greeted me a happy birthday, and told me that they just couldn't wait till afternoon since i look pitiful, having to go all alone. So my tactic did work out!

Anyway, so, we are finally talking to each other, and they were confessing to me that it has been hard not being able to talk to me. I was also shocked receiving gifts from my groupmates in cleaning-Kat, Sheila and Ian. I treated my friends lunch and we were telling stories at each other on our way back. It may not seem normal at all, or you may say that it is anything but ordinary, but I never thought that I will treasure this day forever.